Monday, May 27, 2013

Why I want to be with you

And so this is the place I will stay for hours and hours recalling my memories.
Whenever I am sitting in front of my laptop, putting my thoughts into words, watching them appear word by word on my screen, I can feel that words are important in life.

It is something powerful that comes with an emotion, or maybe more? A single word might change the world. It might make someone happy, make them feel good about themselves, or vice versa. The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of words in life. Without the presence of words, you will not be able to understand each other that well. Likewise, attitude, to me, is more important than the past, than failure, than circumstances, than what other people think or say or do. The remarkable thing though, is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. They can either hurt or heal, depending on how you perceive it.

This brings me to my story today.

A love story, a beautiful one.

When I think about quitting, I take a deep breath, and I

This is what I have been telling myself for the past few months. What haven't changed is every time I close my eyes, the first thing I see, is you. People always say that never give up on something you really want, it's difficult to wait, but it's more difficult to regret.

I have been spending time wondering if I should give up on you. Some said, we are still young and there is yet to experience. University's life, clubs and those spectacular stuffs. Inevitably, we might meet someone who's really awesome and they might even be a perfect match for us. I asked myself tons of times. All this time, I've been thinking about her, thinking about me, thinking how to make things work, how to make things happen.

I pray to meet you, everyday.

Well actually, technically speaking, distance is a problem, at least physically. It's true that it will become so much more harder when you needed a hug or any comforting words to feel better after having a bad day. That being said, despite the fact that we are far apart, it always comes to me that I feel that you are by my side, no matter what state I'm in, happy or sad. I learn to be independent, I know you are always there for me. You make me feel this way, that sort of feeling that can't be replaced. I learn to appreciate how amazing our bond was. It is because of you I know it's worth waiting for. It is because although I know I can't be there holding you every night, it will be worth it on those nights when I can.

Badly, actually.

Every morning during spring, when the flowers start to bloom and the fragrance spreads in the direction of the wind, I'll be holding your hand, listening to the birds singing rhythmically, feeling the warm breeze blowing softly across your face. You can spread your wings and run across the lush green grass over the field if you want, and I will run to you, following your footsteps.

I always wanted to walk along the beach with you during summer. Walking barefoot along the sandy shorelines, splashing water seeing your hair gets wet.

When it comes to Fall, I want to stroll with you to the park, observe the leaves turn brown and fall to the ground, pick apples with you until the sun goes down. When the stars come out, sitting beside you, we will watch the stars until we both fall asleep.

When the streetlights lighting along the streets, the children playing in the winter snow, watching the snow together, we'll walk through the thick snow, sled down the snowy hill together with a sled, experience the most beautiful time of the year. It will be really cold out there. But don't worry, you've got me here. I will hold you tight in my arms to keep your body warm as we walk.

I used to think once we get through this, I am soooooooo gonna propose you and walk you through the doors of love.
It seems to me that people didn't trust long term relationships because they choose not to.
The distance from Canada to Malaysia is 12826.83 km, but all I have is hope.

It's amazing how there are 7 billion people in the world, and I was lucky enough to meet you. How I wish that we weren't so far apart. I'd pop out the other side on your screen and hold you tight until we fall asleep. And I would do that everyday just to look at your face. But that's alright, I was lucky enough to have had you.

I am sorry but thankful for those who have wished and constantly believe in us. Sorry for letting you down, but I still wanna express my gratitude so much and thank you for supporting. What you did in the past and what you do in the future will always stay in my heart.
I guess if I love you, I should let you move on.

We have made this far,
I will treasure the intimacy between us in my heart,
thank you.

Nevertheless, I truly hope to see those who are in a long distance relationship can overcome this barrier and show that nothing matters when there's love because where there is love, there is hope. And I pray.

If you really love someone, let them go.
If they stay away then they were never yours to begin with.
If they come back then they are yours to keep.

我们都是一边珍惜着过往 一边努力的奔向未来
We have our days and we're in it, ALONE. Many times, without any bed-warmers or space-fillers. All I have to say is stay strong and don't stop believing. You'll never know what will happen until the very end.


(Just give me a reason - P!nk)

1 comment:

Thankzzaa! c: